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Just Come In…


The Rose

I have a love for the garden, and flowers of all kinds. I’m drawn to them like a humming-bird. I can’t pass without taking that moment to savor the fragrance and beauty. I just returned from a “Women on the Frontlines” conference. Over and over during the conference I kept hearing “Just come In” an old Margret Becker song. I urge you, when you find yourself drawn into His presence, “Just come In”. Jesus is the lover of your soul and He is waiting for you. Waiting for you to stop and catch a glimpse of his beauty, smell the sweetness of His presence. He doesn’t care what condition you are in, He just wants you! All of you, unconditionally. He loves you. It’s in those times we steal a moment to find His presence, that the Holy Spirit comes and ministers to us. It doesn’t have to be an hour of prayer, it can come in minutes. In those minutes let Him refresh you, change your heart, prepare you for your day. He is after you, all of you…Maybe it’s while you are driving to work, maybe it’s on the subway or bus, but take that moment to remember the sweetness of your Savior’s love for you. When you come into His presence in worship, let yourself linger, don’t rush to the next thing. There is nothing that can compare.  Hide yourself in Him.

Be grateful, humble and love deeply…

Psalm 38:4

Taste and see that the LORD is good. Blessed is the person who takes refuge in him

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When You Are Broken…



Kiss the Son

When you’ve been broken, broken to pieces.
And Your heart begins to faint
’cause you don’t understand.
And when there is nothing to rake from the ashes.
And you can’t even walk
onto the fields of praise.

But I bow down and kiss the Son.
Oh, and I bow down and kiss the Son.

Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.
Let the praise of the Lord be in my mouth.

Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Well, though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.
Though You slay me, I will trust You, Lord.

When the rock falls, falls upon you.
And you get ground to dust
no music for your pain.
You open the windows, the windows of heaven.
And then You opened me
and You crushed me like a rose.

Kevin Prosch

When You Are Broken…

Over the past weekend a couple came to my home church to visit. They shared their story about following the call of God, and how difficult the journey has been. We live in a culture that really requires we “do pretty” all the time. But what happens when the “pretty” has run dry in your life. What happens when the “pretty” is gone when you believed with your whole heart that you were following God. What happens when you have waited for his perfect timing and his will aligning, and the “pretty” is all gone. You are surviving, but nothing is as you had imagined…it’s hard, and it’s not “pretty.” Jen Patrick’s wife said that it was “in this pain she found herself suddenly so alive.” At that moment I burst into tears. I know this story, I’ve lived it.

Someplace in our American church culture, we believed that if we did the right stuff, all our journeys would have a happy, easy ride away in the sunset ending. But what happens the day, week, month and year that no “pretty” is in sight. Lots of us over the last 10 years have set out on journeys.  Journeys we were certain were God directed, prompted, assigned. We have faith at the starting gate…but somehow when all that could go wrong has gone wrong, there is no “pretty” where do we go? Are we angry at God for taking us on this dead end journey? Do we shout and cry and ask the Lord over and over again why it has turned out this way. Why so much loss, why so much pain, when we did our best to follow him. I have at times done all this and more. I have burned 20 years of journals that contained every dream, promise, vision, prophetic utterance ever given to me by God. Because having those journals in my arms that day was just to painful to hold. All those dreams unfulfilled, so much that I had never seen come to pass in my life.

All my life I was one who prayed. As a little girl I would go to bed every night an pray for everyone and everything I could think of. So to say that I didn’t have faith would be wrong. I didn’t meet Jesus until I was already divorced and 24. But God had a plan, He definitely found me and convinced me of his person, his son and the power of the Holy Spirit. All in one very complete moment. But there are those times when you have sought and followed to the best of your ability that you still end up someplace you never dreamed you would be. The “pretty” is all gone…And you are broken, and broken hurts like hell.  You think of all the things one might do in that place of disappointment and pain.  Then the Holy Spirit comes to you in a way that you realize that it is in this broken place; that you have come to meet him and know him best. That in the pain of all this loss, disappointment and ashes you are most alive. You feel deeper than you have ever felt before, you have compassion at a level so intense that when you hear someone else’s story of a difficult journey you weep with them.  You care when the homeless shelter has no hot food on a freezing cold night, your heart begins to leap to try and make someone else feel comforted and loved. You are willing to live with less so someone else might have a bit more.

This pain so deep, so broken, feeling truly as you have been crushed like a rose on path in the summer’s night. But with that crushing the perfume of that rose is released, it begins to swirl in the air, and the sweetness becomes a comfort to you. The rose now transformed, is not longer pretty, but so very fragrant now crushed and bruised on the garden path. Out of our deepest trials, our deepest hurts, when we look in the mirror and see no “pretty” staring back at us, but there is one who see’s great beauty. The maker of us all stands back and admires his beautiful creation. How much like his son Jesus, this one has become. The heart is now tender, the hands are now useful to him, the thoughts have been purified by fire. That journey which seemed so likely to destroy you before you ever reached the shore, is past. The season has changed. You have been changed.

What will you do at the end of such a hard and tiresome journey…I will bow down and Kiss the Son.

Be grateful, humble and love deeply…

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I’ll Believe It When I See It…and other such non-sense…


eliaslinkedresourcephotosTonight on my way to bed it occurred to me that to see what God see’s, to understand how God still speaks today, there are certain notions that must be dismissed. Until those notions have been dismissed and you have eyes that are actively looking for Jesus in everyday life, you will not understand these things.

God meant for us to be like little children. In order to understand this verse from Corinthians, you must first have at least the curiosity of a little child. Will you stomp your feet in a mud puddle just to see the pattern made by the splashes, will you mix every flavor of soda to into your cup just to try a new creation?  If those seem like a stretch, then maybe you will need to exit this train now.

Paul said this in Corinthians 2:9. And I believe Paul meant it. However, as it is written: “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived” — the things God has prepared for those who love him–

Just in case you want to go old school, or Old Testament…God is ready for that too. He said it here in Isaiah 64:4 too.  “Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him.”.

Now you have God “the creator’s frame of mind” on the things he will do in the lives of those who love Him.  I am no bible scholar, but don’t have to be. I am called to Love Him. I am drawn to love Him extravagantly, like the one who broke open the perfume bottle and spent it all on Jesus. When you love, with that kind of abandoned come what may love, you begin to see.  You see what He see’s, and what He always wanted you to see. The lost, the broken-hearted, discouraged, the hungry, the weary, the weak, the ones enslaved by their own choices. You can see…and you can feel things you never thought you would feel. Love that comes in waves washing over you, and aches in your spirit that leave you crying and broken. It’s a full meal deal. You love extravagantly, pour your heart out to for Him…and then you can begin to see what He see’s. Then you can touch lives every place you walk with His love. Because once you see it, then you can act on it.

Say to yourself today…”Boom, Jesus give me eyes to see what you see.” Then look for it to be everywhere. You will not see it, if you don’t train your eyes to watch for Him. Train your mind to accept that the things you perceive are not just emotion, or from being tired, or trying to be “hyper-spiritual.” Because God will come in a way that makes you mind go “Boom” and you will be wrecked for how life used to be. It’s really that simple. Give your thoughts permission to be open to the little nudges or kicks in the pants that the Holy Spirit will bring to you. God can and does invade people’s lives, but He also comes by invitation. Jesus loves an invitation.

Open your mind to having “God thoughts, and dreams from Him”. The old testament is full of examples of supernatural occurences that really happened.  Make it fun, be child like and just say, “Boom, Jesus blow my mind. Let me see what you see, feel what you feel, and know your voice today, in Jesus name. Amen.”  Tonight I am more sure than ever that our belief in “coincidence”, “believe it when I see it”, and the all time clincher, “I’ll believe that when pigs fly” are the enemy of the miraculous in our lives.  Some other time I will tell you a story about the day “the pigs were going to have to fly in Eugene, Oregon.”

Say “yes” to Jesus opening up your eyes, and go out and look for a puddle to stomp in, or a snowman to build, or make yourself the most amazing soda fountain “mixed drink.” Then watch what will begin to happen in your life.

Be grateful, be humble and love deeply.

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